This is my life

All I seem to do is not eat/eat and vomit.

I purged.

Acid + Blood.

My chest hurts.

My throat hurts.

My stomach aches.

How am I still alive?

I feel as if I died long ago.

That sounds so emo.

Honestly though, I am so ashamed of myself.

Just this year, I have:

purged an ice pop in the toilet sink at college

purged in the disabled toilet at college

stolen food

purged in a paper cup in the common room at college (it was just stomach acid at 7.45am, as I got there before everyone else-a daily thing- and felt "heavy", despite not having any food inside of me)

lied.

Every single day is just a lie.

I feel the walls closing in on me.

My first exam is on the 13th, and I haven't done any revision.

I'm planning on b/p, today.

I'm just sad.

Always.

Listening to Jack's Mannequin isn't helping.

lol.

You have to laugh.

I have to laugh.

It's 3.31am, and I'm awake.

Alone.

It feels as if the world is asleep.

I rarely sleep, now.